Pain, Sorrow, Tears

Take your pain
wrap it up
In sorrow

kiss it with tears

Reflection :)Poem from Illusion

Look into the windows of my soul
Reflected is the sorrow untold
Mirrored images cracked
jagged edges exposed
Distorted illusion
razor sharp protrusion
cuts weep, blood slowly leaks
vision clouded reflection of a
soul
without hope

Raw

Erosion of emotions

Cancerous sore, arsenic poison

My hatred boils

Peel away the scab, an old scare reveal

Deep beneath surface are many more

Lesions exist to serve a reminder

Of the pain I've gone through

Slowly eating away my insides

Eruptions coming

Spewing out injustice, toxic frustration

Squeezing breath from my burning lungs

Leaving me exposed 


Raw

Wounded Soul :)Poem from Illusion

Forgiveness is the wind
blowing away darkened clouds
Behind lies the sun

rising to smile... revealing a sky
Blue as a ribbon 

tied around a heart 
that's beating
Out a rhythm to a 

soundless soul

Cry


Go a head bare your soul
You don't have to be strong for the world
Give in to the emotions you have so valiantly
Fought off
Give in to the pain, that has no name
Tired? I know you are
Tired of trying to shoulder responsibility alone
Carrying around the guilt if you let everyone down
Fair? no it's not
You're the one who is up all night
Release that hurt
Don't be afraid
Cleansing your spirit is always ok
Go a head, no one is listening
Sorrow, is something we all have inside of us
This is your healing, purge those feelings and
Cry

Kiss Goodnight :)Poem from Illusion


Heal me, put me back together,
 Broken and drowning in my own tears
Lift me up higher to grasp the clouds
Give me the wings of angels so that I
May soar above the heavens
Reconcile my heart to the pain
Give me rebirth of a new spirit
Heal me, make me whole, and kiss me
Goodnight

Crystal Ball


I gaze into a crystal ball to see my future
The ball was blank, is that what my future looks like
I couldn't accept it, so I glimpse at it again, still the same result
In true frustration, this was my last hope I picked up the crystal ball
And throw it hitting a wall shattering in millions of pieces
Symbolic of my life, a million directions, none of them leading anywhere
One piece landed at my feet
I went to pick it up and stop, staring back at me was
My mother's face, sadness in her eyes
One tear trapped on her eyelash
I picked up the piece of shattered glass
Looking closely at her face and then I realize
I was starring at myself

Rose


A rose striving to bloom
In a garden
Full of thorns and thistles
Chocking off its life
It hangs it head
While watching each of its petals fall
The sun can no longer break through
The gray mist that hovers above
The air is pungent from the carcasses
That lay near
A rose of beauty so delicate
Smells of sweetness
It's all in vain
No one will ever see its loveliness
Breathe in its fragrance
No one will behold its grace
No one will miss it; it's just another
Flower gone
Swallowed up in a bed of evil
To weak to fight for the right to belong
It hangs its head in defeat
As the last petal falls



Arsenic Love


He use to love me
Call me his queen
His love became dark, grotesque
I became afraid
Nothing was good enough
Not even how I said his name
In my state of mind I was benumb
I couldn't even feel shame
For what I'd become
Seeing myself through his eyes
It reflected all the lies
He loved me no one else would
To him I was a prisoner held
Captive in his heart
His love was corruptible, corrosive
Contaminating me
Time has no age
Age has time
My heart beat the rhythm of a ghost
It beats the rhythm of the damned
This was his love for me
He took my will
Replaced it with fear
Smothered my self esteem
Killed my self worth
He couldn't touch my soul
Suppress my spirit

Manipulate :)Poem from Illusion


Strings pulled, dancing to a tune
 

Mouth speaks, not my words
 

Thoughts formed, not conveyed
 

Feelings ignored, they don't exist
 

Empty, mindless, vacant stare, soulless eyes
 

Hollow shell


Days Gone By

Looking back, I can visualize so clearly the good times we use to have
Barbeques that went on for days
Laughter almost drowning out the songs we played on the old stereo
Pop's dancing, doing his thang
Momma cookin and cussing out pour Uncle George
In the end family sitting around the dinner table, telling tall tales
Pop's gotta little drunk, had to go lie down
The children running around playing hide and go seek
Their stomachs full of the great meal Momma fixed
What I remember most is all the love that could be felt
From Great Aunt Flo to the innocent baby softly snoring in his crib
To bad those days are gone
Memories never forgotten
Memories passed on
Generation to generation
Days gone by


Empty

A soul broken
A song with no lyrics
A spirit sick
A book with no words
A mind lost
An expressionless thought
A heart damaged
A room with no doors
A body abused
A cage locked
A future with no hope
Empty


I'm Only Human

I'm only human, I can only do so much
I can reach down in the deepest part of me
Feeling around for answers
Hoping to connect with myself
Retrieving the best of me
Not everyone is satisfied with my results
I'm only human, I try to accomplish my goals
Often I'm stopped by the stumbling blocks
In my path
Then I realize those stumbling blocks are me
Here I go again in search of an answer
I know I can go a little deeper
Scrapping the bottom of my soul
I can't go any further, so I've been told
Pick up the pieces of my life
Once shattered, glue them together
I'm only human my life does matter